"A BIT OF HOPE"

The dreams and the fantasies i've made of a perfect and ideal guy seems endless, though yet i know its only a bad dream. I remembered you were there smiling infront of me. that sweet smile that i thought, i wouldn't barter for anything else. Yes it was real!my feelings for you was for real! I shall never forget your name, it has been engraved in the inner core of my heart, my mind and my soul. It was then i've realized that you were the one i've waited for so long. But it incure pain in my heart to know that you will not love me, because they say, you don't deserve somebody like me. I cared a whole damn lot about you but i no longer expect that you will not love me in return. In my heart, there is a tinged of hope, becoz i know that there is God who's ready to listen and to hear me. I wish i was there beside you, sharing to you all of my deepest feelings. If you only knew i couldn't count the tears i've shared for you every night. If you only knew how i suffered a lot. The anguish i feel and the resentment a gathered in knowing that you just didn't care if i even exist or not. I guess, i deserve to be happy, though i didn't expect it to get it from you. For years you unknowingly hurt me. but who is to blame? Certainly not you. I always respected you defended you against all odds, i trusted you and love you right from the start. Maybe its wrong for me to say I LOVE YOU,,but i don't regret those feelings of mine. Now after all the hurting, im tired of loving you. Im letting you go out of my mind and heart. Its time to face a new life. Im no longer the fool that you once met. So go on with your way and i'll go on mine. I just hope that one day,only a bit of hope remains that our paths would cross again