"Revelations"

I felt something that even myself didn't know why.
I've ended up my days with nothing.Nothing to say, nothing to do
I dont even know why i should exist..Abandoned...Alone...Neglected..Alone..Trash..
But is there someone who knows exactly what i feel? is there someone who can understand?
No one else know how it feels when someone turns you down.
No one else know how it sucks to  be me right now. Each step brought me into the place of nowhere.
As i waste every tear, evrytime i looked forward into the reality that i have nothing.
Too useless to stay..Too hard to quit..Is there enough reason for me to hold on?
My mind is stuck inside my heart..Wise decisions tears me apart.
For i am too deaf to listen.
Too blind to see.
Too paranoid to feel..
Coz that there's no other person lonelier than me.

"Taken for granted"

There is something i was able to say
The words from my heart that i painfully bear
The unreasonable scar that reigns inside me
So just let me express this heavy feelings freely.

Your abscence left me wounded.
Your neglegence makes me feel unwanted
It wasnt supposed for me to feel
The fear inside that your love is slowly disappeared.

Certain mixed emotions reigns in my heart
Do i deserve someone who makes me tear apart?
And everytime i push myself to love you more
You'll just take in it for granted and i feel ignored.

"Farewell letter"

       We have so many memories that we both shared. Between those days that we've created beautiful or even sad moments still treasured on my mind. But for now, i decided to throw away all those things that reminds me of you. They said, "If you love someone unreasonably, you cant also find reasonable ways in how to forget that someone.." But for me, i've created reasonable ways on how i have to forget you.
       You hurt me... You back stabbed me..You murdered my heart.. You've brain washed my head. You make me blind. And left me paralized. Now, im healing. healing on my own. Im doing my best just to fix those things that you broke.You no longer the reason of my hapiness since you left on that door. Since you said goodbye,since you gave me proofs that you don't deserve my love. The point is you lost me..
       And its kinda hurt for i've shared my whole life with you. I've wasted my time, my effort, patience, love for a person who didnt deserve it. You dont deserve it coz if you do, you wont find enough reason to hurt me. You wont have he guts to look for someone which is opposite to my personality. You had me.. I had you..Yet you let me go.
       Dont worry, coz for the mmoment you left me, ive forgive you already. ive forgave those people behind your lies. Though you never really stated the reason why you left me. but its ok,. Youre not meant for me. As the bible said," If you lose someone, maybe god need him." and thats the reason,the main reason why i should let you go.
      You deserve someone. someone who requires youre standards. And i also deserve someone much better than you. But one thing i know thats for sure. Ive let you go without asking reasons for i know that its kinda worth sacrificing. Though ive told you before that your worth fighting for, but fighting without valid reason is a stupid thing for me. If youre the one who pushes me away from you.
      Ive let you go with a peace of mind. Bury the memories that we left behind..Though ive learned something from you but i know you've learned much more from me. And that's my purpose why i came into your life.To make something changes.. To create smile..For you to realize that once  in your life..Kyndra leaves you an unerasable mark in your heart and in your mind. 

"Tear here"

As the days passes by
i've already convince myself that everything about us was just a lie
a lie which i thought was a solemn truth
yet causes too much hatred that make me feel so rude.

Separating myself to you gives me pain
for im missing you every now and then
coz everything and everywhere i go reminds me so much of you
so that's the reality that its hard to let you go

I am now hanging between love and hatred
coz i dont want to leave you coz im hurting myself
but as the time passes by, pain pushes me now to hate you!
for you break my whole heart and tear it into two.

"Limot na ala ala"

Parang kailan lang nang aming tapusin
pagmamahalang namamagitan sa 'min
kahit ang sakit ay buong buo pa rin
pinipilit pa rin ng puso ko na limutin.

Ngunit ngayong sinisimulan ko na ang paglimot
sugat ng kahapo'y pilit na ginagamot
nariyan ka na naman at nagpaparamdam
na tila binabalik balik ang ating nakaraan.

Di pa ba sapat ang pagpapasakit sa 'kin?
pinapahirapan mo lang ang aking damdamin
lilimutin na sana kita, ngunit ngayo'y babalik ka
sasaktan na naman ako't iiwang nagdurusa.

Kaya di na hahayaang muli akong magpakatanga
sa tulad mong walang pakialam sa damdamin ng iba
kahit pagtingin ko sayo'y di pa nabubura
ngunit para sa 'kin, iisa ka ng limot na ala ala.

"Hintay"

Bakit ko pa sya iniisip?
Bakit ko pa sya hinihintay?
Bakit pa 'ko nangungulila sa haplos ng kanyang mga kamay?
gayong alam ko nang tapos na sa 'min ang lahat...
pamamaalam ba nami'y di pa ba sapat?

Sumasagi pa rin sa isip ko, mga alaalang aming nabuo.
ala alang isa isang gumuho sa puso't isipan ko..
pagkat alam kong hanggang doon nalang ang aming pagsasama,
na akala ko'y pang habambuhay na.

Pilit ko mang ngumiti at tanggapin ang lahat,
ngunit pagkukunwaring ito'y di pa pala sapat.
pagkat araw- araw, gabi-gabi ikaw'y akin pa ring hinihintay..
nang makita kang muli at mapawi ang lumbay.